How do you learn to love yourself?
I am in a time of metanoia. I am working on changing my heart, mind, self and way of life. I am trying to learn to love myself, to learn to appreciate my body and to be thankful for everything my body does for me. I am working on looking at my body for all it's strengths and not just all the flaws. I am evaluating how I treat myself physically and mentally. I know it is time for me to change, and while it is hard for me I am committed to making it happen.
Some of the changes will be easy, or at least easier. Always when I am craving change the first thing to be effected is my hair. I was at first reluctant to take out any of the length, but I am reconsidering. I have a tendency to hide behind my hair, and it may be time to take that away for a while. I am thinking I may want to do an asymmetrical bob. I have been flirting with it since before the wedding, and I think it is time to jump. I am thinking this could happen as soon as next week.
I am also planning to get my next tattoos in the next month or so. I am looking at getting essentially two half sleeves of Odin's ravens. I have the artist chosen, and hope to give him a deposit and get them started by my birthday in March. I know absolutely that I want the Ravens, their names probably in English and German, and past that I am trusting Zach to make them amazing, and giving him the canvas of my full upper arms to work with.
In January I began taking American Tribal Style belly dance from Sacred Shimmy Belly Dance. I love it entirely, and I want to keep taking it. I love the way the movements make me feel, and the amazing sisterhood that is such a giant part of ATS. I also signed up to take a workshop in march with Paulette Rees-Denis, which I am ridiculously excited about. I always doubt my abilities too much to take workshops, or master classes, but I am making myself get out of my comfort zone to do something I think will be really good for me. I feel good.
I am a work in progress, but I feel like I may actually be making progress. Maybe change is good.